A Fool’s Errand By Melissa Spellman

A Fool’s Errand

By Melissa Spellman

I wish I was a good girl

That colored in the lines

played by the rules

A girl that liked

Safe, boring dudes, predictable

No thrills no tattoos

The type of dude that

Takes you on a date

Goes along to get along

Admits his mistakes

I wish I liked boring dudes

That live on the surface

Satisfactory to the eye

But wade in a shallow pool

I wish, I was a woman

Suited for a 9 to 5, and

Lived a simple routine life

A woman that liked

Uncomplicated men, idealistic

And posed no risk

The type of man that

Presents well, a stand up guy

Looks good on paper,

And good by my side

I wish I liked uncomplicated men

Content with their station in life

Place their value in objects

Rather than the inner being, the 3rd eye

But I was never a girl

that liked the easy win

Didn’t grow into a woman

that liked unimaginative, unsultry men

I am a force, a creative

I require…quiet suffering,

inspiration

I like men that challenge me

My beliefs, my world view

That call me on my bull

When I lie, see straight through

The type of man that

Controls the room

Whose presence is felt, and

He doesn’t have to say a word

A born leader, and

His decisions are the final word

Everyone orbits his gravitational pull

And look to him to provide

Look to him for safety, resolution

A man chosen, placed in the toughest conditions

Fought to become himself

Whose heart beats different

To love this type of man…

May be a fool’s errand

It takes understanding, because

He can not be controlled

He requires his solitude

Carves his own path, Travels alone

An insatiable appetite

For purpose, passion, and success

To love this type of man

May be a fool’s errand

Guess I’m a fool at best